I hope you can help me with this because I am really confused. My boyfriend and I have been dating for about a year, and lately all he seems interested in doing is having sex.
When we were first together, we did that a lot, but we also went out more—to parties, movies, dinner, concerts, etc. Now we seem to spend most of our time together at my place. Occasionally we hang out with friends, but always go home and have sex. It’s not that I don’t like it, it’s more that I feel that he doesn’t like to do much of anything except that.
When I say I’d really like to do something else, he gets playful and physical—kind of like wrestling, or he’ll start tickling me. Once I begin laughing, he sees it as some kind of giving in, I guess, because he starts initiating sex.
Sometimes, I wish I didn’t given in and wish we’d gone out with friends. Afterward, I don’t feel good about it, but I don’t know how to go about making it better.
Not Feeling Sexy
You don’t say why you are with this guy or what attracted you to him in the first place. My guess is that it was physical and circumstantial. By that I mean that you and he were ready to meet someone and that you each looked good to each other.
Now you have reached the point where the flush of new love has worn off (or down), and all that is keeping you together is the rush of old lust (for him). And rather than liking you, what he seems to like is having sex with you. You might not have consciously admitted this reality, but I suspect that you suspect it. Sex can make you (and just about everyone) feel that all’s right with the world when actually it’s just covering up what is wrong.
At this point, you need to ask yourself some essential questions: What makes me happy? What do I enjoy, whether with someone else or by myself? What do I hope for in a romantic relationship? Then, compare your answers to what you are getting from this relationship. From your letter, you sound young and probably haven’t thought about what you are looking for in a partner because simply having a partner is so exciting and so all-consuming.
Ideally, every relationship you have should teach you something about yourself, i.e., you discover what doesn’t matter to you, what does matter, and what you are willing to do to make sure that what matters to you is what happens to you. According to Plato, Socrates said that the unexamined life is not worth living. But what if, as Kurt Vonnegut mused, “the examined life turns out to be a clunker as well?’ If that is the case for you, you need to do something about it. Examining your life it is just the start of improving it.
As you, no doubt, are beginning to see, inertia can be one of the most powerful forces in a relationship and requires sustained energy to resist. Be glad that you aren’t married or have kids. In fact, since you two aren’t living together, you don’t have complicated loose ends that need to be cut or tied up. If your life with your boyfriend is indeed the “clunker” that it seems to be, you just need to summon all of your emotional forces to chuck it—and don’t look back.
Don’t let the familiar become the acceptable–you deserve someone who loves about you what you love about yourself. If you find someone who just likes you rather than just having sex with you, the sex will be so different, it will make what you were doing before seem, as you put it, “kind of like wrestling.”
Readers: Am I being too harsh? Do you think this relationship has a chance?
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